Future?

When I think about the future, I don't think I have one. Atleast not one filled with love and happiness. To me, it feels like no one will ever love me. I can't tell if it's because of my own self-conciousness or the fact that my first and only...

Shamefully Denying

I don't understand this and I'm hoping someone out there can explain it to me... Why when you have been caught lying, do you still cling to whatever thread of falsity you have and deny it all? For those of you that haven't read any of my earlier...

Hate

I will admit, Derek has done some pretty awful things to me, and yes I have been hurt, but I don't hate him. I hate what he did and I hate that I let him devastate me, however I don't hate him. I know this probably sounds crazy but in reality he has...

Catching up to current

So, as of right now I guess we are technically together but he knows that the trust is gone. He has lied to be FOUR times about what he looks like (I still don't know) and he even lied to be about going off to college. For a few months I actually...

Why do fishies lie?

Do you ever feel like things are too good? Like your life is going a little too well? That is how I felt. I felt like I had found an amazing guy. After Derek sent me his "real" photo, a day later he admitted to me that that guy wasn't him either, that...

Lose a Model, Lose a Friend

And so it continued...we had exchanged pictures and fell more and more in love every day. He was AMAZINGLY gorgeous! Strong, muscular arms, tan skin, blonde shaggy hair... he took my breath away, which should have been my first red flag. We were...

Background of the "fishy"

Hello, my name is Abby and I am currently being Catfished. I know this sounds crazy but even though I know he isnt who he says he is, there is something captivating that I just can't let go. We met online a little over two years ago and he seemed...